the talent show

Talent shows suck!
nothing happened.. he didn't even say goodbye :(
but i'll be fine.

Ok its pathetic i know but i really wanted him to just look me in the eye and realise he's made a huge mistake and say that that girl means nothing and he wants me.. however it was not the case. but as i know life goes on and you just have to make the best of it....

im more worried about t-monster,
she's had an argument with her dad and she's running away. Tomorrow morning.
I don't know exactly what it was about, something about how she hasn't got a job and that, but anyhoo yeah she's coming to mine tomorrow, getting the 7am bus and traveling all the way up. I don't want her to get into trouble, but im not going to say no to her coming because i think she does just need her space for a wee while.... :S i dunno AHHH!!

Its spreading.. i thought it wasn't cancer but what can it be if its spreading... worried muchly... i can't believe it, i don't know what to do... i want it to be better :(

so a bit of a suckish day really.... :(
hopefully tomorrow will be better

xx