hmmm

yeah i know you're gonna read this but i really couldn't care less atm


ive been talking to him and its like i dunno i can't understand him and how his mind works at all.. it bugs me and i usually know vaguly what people are think (well most, i never know what ting, or boyage are thinking but thats different because with boyage its usually something sexually revolved and ting i dunno he'll just be thinking somehting hes too nice to say.. he does that) but yeah and i want to know whats going on but its strange because once i hear one little thing i want to know the whole story..

and i cant believe it went that far. he should talk to someone. i dunno who. i want to be the person to make him happy. i don't know if i ever will be though.

the songs that make me think of him
emotionless - good charlotte
what about now - Daughtry
Running away - midnight hour

three of many likes...
i'm fking obsessed!! AHHHHH i should just let go and forget, and it would all be so much easier and less complicated..

i want the talent show to go well
i want him to look at me and realise he made a mistake
i want to hear his music
i want to understand
i want alot of things though and just because i want them doesnt mean their gonna happen.
:(
i want to be happy...
it isnt really his fault though, its like i should have known something like this was gonna happen, i dont seem to have happy ever afters

gotta fly

xxx