heya
well im supposed to be writing an english talk but tbh i really cant be bothered and i cant concentrate so does it really matter?!?!?
anyhoo i can't believe its only 3 o clock!! (ok now its 4) thats agggggges until i get to see the poser (i am now in a strop!) so what im talking to him on msn.... irrelevent if i do say so myself!!
hes on probation. he probably already know but the likely hood of me not letting him kiss me when im not gonna see him again for a minimum of 2 weeks is incredibly unlikely... but its a fun game to play.. make him work for it if you know what i mean ;)... i really like him... i like really like him.. but dont want to like to push it because as much as he says it i still dont believe that he really likes me as much as i like him... that and i really dont want him to think im obsessive or anything because its like yeah i do think about him all the time but im not obsessed... am i?
oh shit now im being all self doubting..
i still dont think im good enough, he seems so lovely and why would i deserve lovely, i dont think i do .... bad guys that hurt me seems more apt because i hurt people and i don't like to think that i do but still i do it... not fair is it but life isnt so you just have to get on with it... i'll be writing when i get in tonight about what all went down. I can't believe dad put me on the stovie thing, which means i'm like stuck there all night. i haven't said that to Poser yet because i dont want to... if you know what i mean. because there is a chance i might get to go earlier or do a bit and then get off for a while and then go back but you never know so i just dont want to say anything..
well i better go. i need to write an english talk on Bootstock.. which should be fun.. i dont know what to say about it. oh well what can you do likes.. dad wants me to make it all like funny and stuff and im like its an english talk i dont want to do that. so im just going to stick with what ive got so that it works.
well
TTFN
(lol i love using abv its awesome)
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