Lifes a bitch.. but i guess we all knew that... oh and some good news aswell :D:D

heya guys, well quite a few things have happened since i last wrote.. which is quite impressive since i wrote the other day....

well shall i start with the good news or the mmhhhmmm i dunno what kinda news it is, type news? ?

i'll start with the good news because well ITS AWESOME news....

MY BURGER IS FINE!!!, well not fine exactly, but shes not horribly ill like they thought she might be... i'm so happy, the one thing i said would take my scare away and then the next week she said it... it's awesome to know that shes ok..... im just sooo happy, my burger sin't going no where :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Now to the mhhhmm i dont know what kinda news it is kinda news....

Well i went to a gig last thursday and it was ok-ish apart from the fact that my loverly twiggy hardly spoke to me for the first 2 hours, but i gues that was stress and half the people that i really wanted to see werent there... oh and the fact that Boyage ignored me the whole night!!!!!

well i texted him the other day telling him he had until the end of the holidays to explain what the hell was going on, and guess what... no reply.... until last night, when i gave him a little reminder.. here's our whole convo...


ME:

7 days and counting... i'm waiting

Boy:

ok basically i have a girlfriend and the other thing is i wasnt ready for you being so up close to me around everyone i'm sorry k x

ME:

**** why do you do this to me, tell me you love me and cant wait to see me and the after i manage to get time off work and travel half the country to see you and my mates (half of who didnt turn up in the end) and you pretty much ignore me all night. Just tell me whats wrong with me please

Boy:

Nothing is wrong with you its me im a fucking idiot and i will never deserve someone as amazing as you so you are probably better off forgetting about me x

Me:

Thats what my friends say but **** i dont want to forget about you, you make me feel special but i guess im gona have to arent i x

Boy:

Im sorry you dont have to but its totally your decision x

Me:

If your with some other girl (who is she btw) your hardly gona want to talk to me, one thing i want to know, were you telling the truth when you said you loved me?

Boy:

It's ***** *** and yes i was x

Me:

is it still true?

Boy:

Ye x

Me:

do yo uwant me to forget about you?? (last question) why didnt you just tell me about *****? x

Boy:

i dont want you to but its your choice and i didnt have credit to text you sorry x

Me:

Your such a bastard.. but you were mine... you said forever. i hate you but love you at the same time, i really dont know what to do, im gonna bave to think about it. i was so angry and hurt, now im just upset... if you were in my place what would you do?? x

Boy:

I honestly dont know

Me:

i want to forgive you but i know that when you and ***** split you come to me until you find yourself a new girlfriend, i know thats what'll happen and i dont want to get hurt again.... but i miss you so much x

Boy:

It wont if things dont work out between me and ***** i wont come to you unless you want me x

Me:

Thats the problem... i do, so much, but i know you bad, yet so good... your heart is pure but your mind is currupted... x

Boy:

yep thats me x

Me:

i just want to hug you so bad, and have your pure heart all to myself. But its *****'s now. Now i know why people get upset at breakups i'm gonna stop talking now im just being mean. i dont want you to feel bad about this you and ***** will be happy But i just want my **** back. miss you night xx

Boy:

miss you too xx

so yeah thats what went down the other night... tbh im not proud of most of what i said and i shouldnt have said it, looking backi totally colasped... i was supposed to be angry.. look how long that lasted...

well thats what happened..

xx